Ive deleted all of my past posts, its been forever and day since I last wrote. This past year has been filled with lots of blessings, along with lots of stress and things that almost broke my faith. I got too wrapped up in the things that I was doing wrong, and I felt like I forgotten whom I was and what I wanted out of life. 
 Our move from Kansas to Ft Campbell Kentucky helped all that change, it was a new place with new faces and new chances to find myself again. Everyone keeps telling me that I need to go to school, take some classes, get a degree. I know that It will deff. help out with things, but to be honest with you that's not what my heart wants to do right now. I want to start working again. Gain some experience for a career. I have looked in lots of places but one has not struck home just yet. In all actuality I want to go to culinary school. I want to learn to cook healthier, cleaner meals for my family. I love baking from scratch improvising recipes to make it my own. Seeing other people appreciate my cooking makes me feel good. That is what brings me happiness. Baking. It brings me a peace of mind. I hope to work in or own my own bakery one day, like a cupcake/coffee shop. I know it may sound silly to some but Im not one to want to sit behind a desk all day and crunch numbers. I would even like to go to school for nutrition. I could even get a job working as a nutritionist, I know its all over the place but that is what my heart feels.
 That being said, this new year I have quite a few goals. I recently have came to see how much technology takes up our day. I go to the park and see moms pushing their children on the swing WHILE glued to the screen of a phone. I go to dinner with my husband and see couples not even having conversations. they're both again...on their phones. We come home from work/ school and instantly turn on the TV. I also noticed while im out in public I see kids of all ages  glued to some kind of electronic,  a phone, a tablet, a Nintendo. Gone are the days of coloring books and crayons, which is what I carried around. One of my goals is to cut down on my and my Childs technology uses. I have an iPhone and I admit to constantly checking my instagram, Facebook, email, Pintrest, text messages, and all this takes away time I could be using to better myself in some type of aspect. With it being winter time we cant really go outside. So I will state what I want to achieve in 2014.
    In 2014 I want to learn how to eat clean and healthy. I want to cut out processed foods, and cut back or even cut out meat.  I have been reading so many stories of how tainted and pumped full of steroids the meat that we buy in the store is. I read stories of how horribly the animals are treated on these farms, and its sad to me. I know either way they get butchered but I watched a horrible documentary. Pigs being crammed in crates not being able to move, baby chickens basically being grinded in a grinder ALIVE if they have a fault, cows on conveyor belts being milked by machines, it made me cry and to be honest im debating on cutting meat from my diet. I know youre probably rolling your eyes, and thinking Its just a phase. Im going to look for meat that's locally grown and farm raised.
  I want to get stronger physically Ive fallen behind and my confidence levels have dropped drastically. This summer I don't want to hide behind a towel on the beach, I want to walk in my swim suit and enjoy my vacation instead of constantly worrying what I look like to other people. I m going to get back in to running which also serves as my therapy. Strapping on my running shoes and putting in my headphones keeps me sane through the week. I HATE running on a tredmill I like being in the sunshine so this winter weather really screws up my schedule. I want to run a 5K this year at a 10 min mile pace or less. To prove to myself  I can do it, that I am capable of achieving my goals.